Since it's still a little touchy, I will not use names. But if the shoe fits honey, wear it.
Dear,
I thank you for taking the time out to call me all those names. I thank you for taking the time out to attempt to ruin my day. I thank you for your attempt to ruin my relationship. I thank you for physically assaulting me. I thank you for allowing me, even telling us to "call the cops then" after taking my property and locking yourself in your home with it, refusing to give it back. I thank you for telling me what to expect, "The next time I see you you're gonna get it a lot worse than your glasses got it."
But mostly, I thank you for allowing me the opportunity to record everything on video to show the police, and in the future, to possibly courts, how you deal with situations and your children. Thank you for proving to the police that you lie, denying everything that was recorded on video AFTER they watched it. Thank you for it all, because without it, I wouldn't have looked at myself in a loving and accomplished light. Thank you for making me feel even more appreciative of the things I have, the relationships I've created, and the life I've built for myself. Christina Aguilera said it best:
"After all you put me through,
you think I'd despise you.
But in the end, I wanna thank you,
cause you've made me that much stronger...
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter"
You said, "You are nothing, nothing! You lied about everything" Well. That's a good place to start. Let's look at our track records here, shall we? We'll begin with you. You like to be first, don't you?
Know that before reading this, I pray for you every single day. I hope that the full horror of your actions [including the ones I do not mention on here] will be revealed to you. I pray that you find peace and get the help you need to overcome your obstacles. I pray that through getting the right help, your children will thrive and learn that there is more to life than smoking, doing drugs, drinking, having their Grandma take care of them, and listening to adults say bad words [that I won't even say on here either] about their father and myself. [Side note - who tries to teach a three year old to call someone a slut? AND feels proud of the child?]
I can only pray and hope - I have no place in your business. ONLY when it involves me, like when you decided to attack me and take personal property and refuse to give it back do I have a place in your business at that time.
Since elementary school, you have been in and out of the counselor's office and the front office multiple times. Why? Because of your mental illnesses. Which, at the time, included depression, social anxiety, self consciousness, chronic lying, and "awkwardness". Further, you would start fights. Physical and verbal, with anyone who you didn't like. If they looked at you funny, if you thought you heard them call you names like fatty, meanie, liar, and crazy. Remember when I was told to sit with you in the lunch room [supervised] because no one would sit with you? You had gotten into a physical fight and people in your class didn't want to get hurt.
You've been in counseling and on medication for nearly all your life. FURTHER,
You decided, at some point to mix those medications with alcohol and illegal drugs including marijuana, cocaine, heroin, and other opiates.
You decided to go to your doctor's office and tell him the meds weren't working so you could get a higher dose to both get high off of yourself, and to give to others.
You decided, at some point, to self harm yourself because, you told me, that you felt bad about yourself and maybe people would pay attention to you.
You decided to not change.
You decided to put your children in harm's way.
[No sense trying to claim otherwise, video and photographic evidence along with other testimonials say otherwise. Or should we look at the many police reports from the troopers?]
You decided to act in such a way that would lead to people around you going to jail, have yourself arrested, in numerous police reports, and even resort to physical violence and putting that person in a hospital, knowing that your actions could have killed the person.
You decided to tell me, "I'm going to do everything I can to fuck up your divorce. I hope Alex believes what I've been telling him. If I hurt, so do you." And, to make matters even better, you admitted you were lying.
WELL. I could continue, but I think I've made some sensible points to public readers about your disposition and personality.
I hate to toot my own horn, but here's a little bit.
I've never, ever, in my entire life, touched an illegal substance. I've been exposed to it through knowing people from school, yourself, and through my work in EMS. Other than that, NOTHING.
I have almost completed my undergrad, live in a house, pay my own bills, am active in my community and local schools, and am applying to graduate schools. I feel like I have a future.
I haven't lied to you about anything. Why would I tell you something so personal that I would have to feel the need to lie about it? CLEARLY your track record shows you untrustworthy since the beginning.
We both have choices, dear. We both make decisions with how we want to lead our own lives. We both chose a path for ourselves. We both must deal with the consequences, good and bad, for what we choose. I pray you can live with yours.
"After all you put me through,
you think I'd despise you.
But in the end, I wanna thank you,
cause you've made me that much stronger...
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter"
You said, "You are nothing, nothing! You lied about everything" Well. That's a good place to start. Let's look at our track records here, shall we? We'll begin with you. You like to be first, don't you?
Know that before reading this, I pray for you every single day. I hope that the full horror of your actions [including the ones I do not mention on here] will be revealed to you. I pray that you find peace and get the help you need to overcome your obstacles. I pray that through getting the right help, your children will thrive and learn that there is more to life than smoking, doing drugs, drinking, having their Grandma take care of them, and listening to adults say bad words [that I won't even say on here either] about their father and myself. [Side note - who tries to teach a three year old to call someone a slut? AND feels proud of the child?]
I can only pray and hope - I have no place in your business. ONLY when it involves me, like when you decided to attack me and take personal property and refuse to give it back do I have a place in your business at that time.
Since elementary school, you have been in and out of the counselor's office and the front office multiple times. Why? Because of your mental illnesses. Which, at the time, included depression, social anxiety, self consciousness, chronic lying, and "awkwardness". Further, you would start fights. Physical and verbal, with anyone who you didn't like. If they looked at you funny, if you thought you heard them call you names like fatty, meanie, liar, and crazy. Remember when I was told to sit with you in the lunch room [supervised] because no one would sit with you? You had gotten into a physical fight and people in your class didn't want to get hurt.
You've been in counseling and on medication for nearly all your life. FURTHER,
You decided, at some point to mix those medications with alcohol and illegal drugs including marijuana, cocaine, heroin, and other opiates.
You decided to go to your doctor's office and tell him the meds weren't working so you could get a higher dose to both get high off of yourself, and to give to others.
You decided, at some point, to self harm yourself because, you told me, that you felt bad about yourself and maybe people would pay attention to you.
You decided to not change.
You decided to put your children in harm's way.
[No sense trying to claim otherwise, video and photographic evidence along with other testimonials say otherwise. Or should we look at the many police reports from the troopers?]
You decided to act in such a way that would lead to people around you going to jail, have yourself arrested, in numerous police reports, and even resort to physical violence and putting that person in a hospital, knowing that your actions could have killed the person.
You decided to tell me, "I'm going to do everything I can to fuck up your divorce. I hope Alex believes what I've been telling him. If I hurt, so do you." And, to make matters even better, you admitted you were lying.
WELL. I could continue, but I think I've made some sensible points to public readers about your disposition and personality.
I hate to toot my own horn, but here's a little bit.
I've never, ever, in my entire life, touched an illegal substance. I've been exposed to it through knowing people from school, yourself, and through my work in EMS. Other than that, NOTHING.
I have almost completed my undergrad, live in a house, pay my own bills, am active in my community and local schools, and am applying to graduate schools. I feel like I have a future.
I haven't lied to you about anything. Why would I tell you something so personal that I would have to feel the need to lie about it? CLEARLY your track record shows you untrustworthy since the beginning.
We both have choices, dear. We both make decisions with how we want to lead our own lives. We both chose a path for ourselves. We both must deal with the consequences, good and bad, for what we choose. I pray you can live with yours.
Know that I will protect me and mine.
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